This Time

Addiction's are the worst things in the world. Especially because you know it's all in your head and all you need to do is just stop.thinking.about.it.

I think i know the root cause of my addiction. It's my lack of access to it. And the fact that i really don't have anything better.

So i'm gonna stop now. Hold back. Worked the last time. Except that i got more and the vicious cycle continued.

Mash was right yesterday. The kitten and the ball of yarn analogy. I'll start now. Today. Yes.

I want my dignity, my pride and yes, my undisputed and reckless ego back. Give me back my pedestal.