Fuck This Shit

No. Really. Fuck it.

I'm done.

I'm done trying to be a better person. No one really gives a fuck. Cause its not what anyone really wants anyways.

I'm done caring. I'm done being nice. I'm done trying to break the streotypical image people have of me.

Bitch? Sure.

Tease? Sure.

Selfish princess? Sure.

Arrogant? Sure.

All Encompasing

Why can't i be the girl that has everything?

Am i really as inadequate as i've always thought i was?

Round 2?

The last time i felt like this was 4 years ago.

The hunger was comfortable. The weakness normalcy.

But the difference is, the last time this happened, i was depressed. I had supressed all of it and i was downing an emotional cocktail. I'm not right now though. At least, i don't think so?

Yet. 4 years ago i was in denial about it. It scares me that maybe right now i am too.

10.10.10

I need to get over my abandonment issues.

And we need to find. Us.