21.11.10

Keeping it all in? Not such a good idea.

I'm a little more than a little embarassed at the outpour of emotions i just had. But i guess thats what happens when your just spread too thin, and try to do everything, and be everything, all at once.

The fact that i might have lost something i worked so hard on for years, the fact that i had a lecturer threatening to fail me, the fact that my dad is pissed at me and isn't doing so well, the fact that i've probably pissed off my friends with my flakiness due to debates, the fact that i'm losing the man i probably love at the time when i'm realising that i probably actually love him....

It was just way too much.

I tried, to be the Superwoman everything thinks i am. And because you told me that you like me when i'm strong. Funny how the memory of you saying that makes me weak.

God give me strength. Heck, just give me a break.

I'd like to think i deserve it.